Lost that Feeling

*sigh*

I’m having trouble enjoying Xanga lately.  There could be several reasons for this.  Let’s discuss.  Or I write and you read as the case might be.

Got caught up in some micro-drama that involved a psycho (in my opinion) stalker bitch and her ex-boyfriend.  That’s over now.  I blocked her and moved on.  Besides really pissing me off and causing her ex (my friend) a shit load of pain, it wasn’t that big of a deal.  And most of the drama happened on Facebook.  So, I think I’ll rule that one out.

A lot of my closest Xangan friends, though not all, have stopped blogging.  They have their reasons and most I can understand and respect.  And most of them, I still talk to on IM and Facebook…so in the end I haven’t really lost anything.  Other than the really good posts they used to write.

Lastly, I got caught up, in my mind, in a friendship with another Xangan.  I made it more than it was, again in my mind, and now it’s nothing at all.   I miss him.  A lot.  His friendship.  His witty comments.  Honestly though, I think I MAY be better off now that he’s gone.  He’s like a drug to me.  I can’t say no, but regret every time I indulge.  It was nice to imagine that maybe, just maybe he felt something for me.  However, when I pushed and then shoved him to be honest he was silent.  I’ve analyzed that response, to be sure, but have failed to really come up with an answer.  Other than he thinks I’m crazy.  And I suppose I am.

It’s sad that this is most likely the reason I’m not ‘feeling’ Xanga lately.  Especially considering I brought it on myself.   This isn’t an anit-Xanga rant though.  It has little to do with anyone but me and how I’m feeling in general.  I certainly have no plans to go blog anywhere else.  I’m just not sure I feel like blogging at all. 

And that’s incredibly sad.

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About liferepressed

* I write because I don't like who I am when I stay silent. I write because I'd rather give up breathing than writing. I don't claim to be good, but I claim to try. I hope to make people think, to consider the state of their own lives. I try to write about things that matter. Not everything I write is serious, though, as laughing matters. I write and hope you will read.
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15 Responses to Lost that Feeling

  1. I go through bouts where I just don’t feel like blogging at all, although my reasons are a bit different.  For example, after a week of finals I felt like being super lazy instead of using any brain activity haha.

  2. @Roadlesstaken – blogging requires brain activity????  Maybe that’s my problem!!

  3. @repressedwriter – Haha, well writing any type of blog/comment with some thought takes some brain activity in me, yes.  

  4. Diva_Jyoti says:

    thanks for sharing.  I think things cycle here a lot, and you will get caught up in it again. 

  5. I can see the loss of interest from all of that.  Maybe take a step away for a while?

  6. The above comments already said pretty much what I was going to say. Maybe you need a change of lifestyle / hobbies / projects to blog about. Or maybe you just need a break for a while. Or you could preview a hundred new themes. That’s what I do when I’m not feeling the blog.

  7. MisterWriter says:

    hugs to you, I understand the drama’s you know I do. I ‘m not feeling like blogging much myself.

  8. Oh yes, I hit that feeling (or lack of it) many many times over the past year or so. But Xangans always stick with me and so I always come back. I’ve just taken it for granted that I’ll always come back, ha. I can’t rid myself of the urge to come here. ~V

  9. sunfiremom says:

    A lot of my Xanga friends have given up or don’t post much anymore.  I can understand it.  Sometimes it’s hard for me to get on and write something.  I’ve been on here for about 6 or 7 years so the thrill is fading.  But somehow I keep pushing myself to write and sometimes I just need to write.  Hope you don’t decide to go away for good.

  10. Bricker59 says:

    take a break if you need one. I think we all go through surges of what you’re feeling.

  11. Everyone needs a break every now and then!

  12. Gosalyn223 says:

    my reason for not bloggist is well I’ve always been inactive just not the type that really just talks about herself but believe it or not I do read all of the buddylist’s weblogs sometimes I’d write sometimes I don’t comment on them but surely they’re entertaining and important.

  13. Aihimeko says:

     I hope your “xanga-feel” comes in waves just like it does for me. Then you will surely regain the feeling you’re missing! 

  14. The_second_x says:

    Just to cheer you up Ima comment.Comment and say that I actually wrote a blog. See how much I love you?!

  15. @The_second_x – awwww.   šŸ˜€   yay-ness.  I tried reading it but my migraine ain’t making it easy.  I’ll read it tomorrow when I can truly appreciate it.

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